I have suffered from depression for several years, up and down, and know what you are going through. It is best
that he know now what is going on. It's hard to see someone for what they really are when you live close, but
far away, is even more difficult. I am an American that married a British man and lived in the UK for nine years. I moved
there knowing little about him....fortunately, he's a good man but my depression did get in the way. You're in Scotland,
I see. I am sure that you can get counseling and all that on the NHS. Your GP may be able to make a referral.
As to this bloke, I think that if he is running from something like this, you'll have a load of hassle down the road when
you have serious issues to sort out. He's obviously not mature enough or ready for a commitment. My advice would be
to just sit it out. He's got your email and explanation. Let it go at that and let it take its own course.
As for suicide, if your thoughts get any stronger, please talk to someone. You can even email me privately if
you want to.
Good Luck.